Maybe it has to do with me actual being alone, being single. I know the whole saying "you shouldn't rely on a relationship to make you happy" or however that songbird tune goes but I think for those such as myself, whom it's been a while since they've been in a relationship it's all that we long for. Sure we have other things that make us happy but this is the one thing we lack. That's probable cause number one. Number two I think just has to do with career wise.. sure I've gotten the ball rolling on some things that need to get started but when I truly look at myself and question myself "What do you want to do" or "Where do you see yourself in the next 5 years".. I have no answer.. I start to feel that something is wrong. I would think even at my age sure I don't have to have everything figured out, but if I could at least have a simple hint as to something I'm interested in would help point me in the slightest direction then I'd be ok with that too.

My horoscope for today says that something "drastically" needs to change. That my life has started to feel like "stale crackers" talk about preaching to the choir. I do need to make a change, I just have no idea where to start. One of my changes could be a change of scenery, now that would be amazing! To go some place different at the drop of hat, next thing you know I would come back singing a different tune.

Eh' I don't know. I'm just kind of blabbing. Most of this stuff was just running around in my head and the best way for me to deal is to just write it down or type it out or whatever third form I would do. In some way it does help.