J A M I E { From UrbanDictionary } A girl who is intelligent, yet silly. A girl who is cold on the outside, yet warm and cuddly on the inside. A girl who will tell her friends everything, yet she has many secrets hidden. A girl who is a great friend, yet a worthy advesary if you are not a friend of hers. A girl who is extremely sweet and innocent, yet she'll kick someones ass when necessary. link link link

It's Sunday night.. and partially comfy on this love seat in our living room. I'm kind of bored and a bit tired from doing absolutely nothing. But hey it's not like any of this is new ..except for 2 things; 1)I am typing this in the living room and 2)I am typing this on my brand new DELL MINI!!

I have decided to name her (yes, her) Della Mini (simple, cute, easy). I don't know why I feel the need to name my electronics ...I guess it just makes me happy. Anyhow she arrived on Thursday no wait excuse me.. Friday and I was so excited. I didn't realize that when they say Mini they aren't kidding. But still I feel she is the perfect size for what I am looking for. Something simple and light.. something that I can just pick up and go. It's like a laptop minus the cd/dvd drive and the weight. I'm investing in one more item and that will be my portable hard drive and I think I'll be set. I am also investing into getting a new camera. But we'll see how that goes.

Della Mini is pretty setup to how I like it.. it took a little bit of adjusting getting used to Windows 7 but I like it so far. It's only the starter program and I'm actually considering upgrading to the Home Edition. But we'll see what my wallet has to say about that ..currently she has her eyes set on a camera.

Don't you just love how I am giving life to my inanimate objects. Haha. Anyway I thought I'd write for the hell of it.. and to pass the time..

Work has been going good.. Sadly this coming week is the last week of the San Jose run and it will soon be over and I'll go back to being jobless. the hunt continues. But I enjoyed my time with Cirque while it lasted.. after sunday it will be "au revoir cirque du soleil"

Well my mind is a blank.

blank. blank blank. blan. bla. bl. b. .
Au Revoir.

Did the roses never roam in?
Are you left to start again?
And not a single tear
Should fall into the water
That you kept them in..

Dear Anna, I am the only one
Who will love you until the end
I Anna, open your heart again
And warm me by the fire within

How you gonna face the Autumn?
With the pain your only friend
Just remember that..
Before you know the Winter
You'll know love again

Dear Anna, I am the only one
Who will love you until the end
I Anna, open your heart again
And warm me by the fire within

I stand
Forewarned
Love will change
Even the best of friends
And I've been wrong with starting over
Go on and have yourself a cry
Cause I just wanna be the man with arms around you
When you dry
Your eyes

Dear Anna, well I am the only one
Who will love you until the end
I Anna, open your heart again
And warm me by the fire within

"Dear Anna" by Jason Mraz

I love him... 

-- Sent from my Palm Prei

 I had this amazing idea for a blog post. I'd like to give credit to Mute Math and their song "Stall Out" for some how influencing this post. In this post are answers.. The questions I know but will not be posted.. Maybe you can play the guessing game and try to figure out the Q's. I'm sure down the road I will eventually forget and have no clue what this post was about. I guess I should get started.

_ things are good, life is life. Not much has changed since last year there's nothing really to be proud of in that answer but it's all I've got.

_ yes, lets start.

_ I'm not really sure how/when it started I just know that it should have ended ages ago. But I was so blind and naive that I kept pushing for it.

_ I knew that things were never going to change. The outcomes were always the same and I think I felt that it was up to me to stop this ridiculous cycle. It took a lot of will power.

_ I'll probably never admit it out loud but I have a strong feeling that it was mutual at one point. Or maybe not even mutual but that it was there and I was so oblivious to it that I never noticed it and I guess by the time I did it was too late.

_ it was kind of like a step program. Like a slow progression. Dislike ended up turning into hate and as much as I didn't want to go down that road, I knew I had to. 

_ I have no idea, as stupid as it sounds it seems like it grew on it's own without my knowledge. Like it still surpises me how overwhelming it became in the end and how much I was "invested" (that sounded so lame haha)

_ I do from time to time but (this will sound pretty harsh) I try not to.

_ I always wondered. But I doubt I will ever find out. But all you gotta do is ask right? Maybe I will someday.

_ No, that whole situation just has to do with me being lazy. I want to try but I hate the work that's involved with trying. See "lazy" ha.

_ of course, I try to be friendly. But this should be a 50/50 thing. I don't always have to be the one to initiate things cause after a while it gets old and I end up getting annoyed. If things don't change ..expect the cold shoulder. Or just being ignored completely. Either way I'm great at both.

_ Was there ever a time you just randomly missed me like out of the blue? (i know I said there are only answers ..but this IS my answer)

_ It's 4:50 in the morning. The end.

-- Sent from my Palm Pre

 So today, or let's make this more accurate ..yesterday I was standing outside of the tent with one of my co-workers and I was telling him my birthday.. So he says to me a couple minutes later 

 "on your birthday your life is going to change"

 It kind of took me by surprise and I just stood there trying to figure out what he said.. and why. So I asked him how did you come up with that? And in return he said "Numerology" and I told him oh yah I use to read those in magazines. Supposebly if you add your birthdate plus the current year (in which he did 2011) and if the number equals to 1 then some change is going to happen. I joked with him and started throwing out possibilities like:

..am I going to get married
..am I going on tour with CDS?
..or no, I got it I'm going on tour with CDS where I will meet my future hubby and have me some kids..
...maybe I'll win the lotto and get me a Volvo as my first big purchase
...or maybe I'll get that curling iron I always had money for but never bought

Haha.. Hey who knows right? I don't know what my future holds and I don't really try to think about it.. If I'm thinking about the future, the farthest I'm going is maybe like next week.. 

  "my dear there is no danger..."
AFI - Beautiful Thieves

-- Sent from my Palm Pre